Fierce Love: Fashioning Becoming a Researcher | Amour féroce : le façonnage d’un chercheur en devenir

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Sarah R. Pickett


Abstract: This paper explores problematic discourses associated with becoming a researcher in the academy through the arts based research methods of autoethnography and narrative performance. I attempt to enhance awareness and contribute to growing knowledge surrounding the experience of becoming a researcher via fragments of my coming out journey, my experience as a psychotherapist and the evolution of my view of a researcher. Through performance-based frameworks and personal evocative writing toward inquiry I weave specific interactions with theoretical positioning. I highlight the collision of discourses and how both vulnerability and critical reflection paved the way in my becoming a researcher.

Key Words: Arts based Research; Education; Researcher Identity Development; Autoethnography; Narrative Performance; Queer; LGBTQ; Microaggressions, Counselling

Résumé : Cet article traite des discours problématiques pour ceux et celles qui accèdent au monde universitaire en devenant des chercheurs par le biais de méthodes de recherche à caractère artistique, dont l’auto-ethnographie et la performance narrative. Je tente de stimuler la prise de conscience et de contribuer à l’expansion des connaissances entourant l’expérience du chercheur par l’entremise de fragments de mon cheminement d’affirmation de mon identité, de mon expérience de psychothérapeute et de l’évolution de ma perception de ce qu’est un chercheur. J’y entrecroise certaines interactions avec le positionnement théorique à l’aide de cadres performantiels et d’écriture personnelle évocatrice. Je mets en évidence la collision entre les discours et la façon dont tant la vulnérabilité que la réflexion critique ont jeté les bases du chercheur en devenir.                                                

Mots-clés : recherche artistique ; éducation ; développement de l’identité de chercheur ; auto-ethnographie ; performance narrative ; allosexuel ; LGBQ ; micro-agressions ; counseling

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Sarah R. Pickett, Memorial University Newfoundland


Assistant Professor


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